Poems 1994-2001
By David Thomas Gross
1994
A Butterfly
Look at the Butterfly in the sky
Floating graciously like the wind
Remembering the days when it was
Weak and feeble and was bound to
The Ground it went away to a lonely
Place where it was transformed
A Butterfly
A Friend of Mine
He's' been a Friend when, the times
of loneliness came
He's' been a Friend when, my heart
was broke and cold
He's' been a Friend when, i was not a good friend
He's' been a Friend when, i was
ready to quit it all
He's' been a Friend when, the shadows of the
crowds cover me
He's' been a Friend when, i needed a ear to
listen to my heart
Jesus is that he, my Friend
A Quiet Talk with God
A quiet talk is all what I need
Let's take a Long walk, just you and I,
And have another
Quiet talk
As we walk I can't but notice your eyes
With life and Light I see reflections of my Cries
The words are stuck in my heart, But you say
"I already Know
what you were going to say, even before you spoke."
you calm my fears, and wipe my tears
and I've found you hold my hand and won't let go
as I walk I follow after you
your precious love you do bestow
As I kneel at your feet
your quiet voice touches my heart
and I don't want to depart your Presence
For in my life there's nothing more precious
Than a Quiet Talk with Jesus
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A TEAR FROM
ABOVE
HE
AS THEY ROLE DOWN MY CHEEKS
HE KNOWS THAT I AM WEAK
HE HEARS MY
AS I FEEL MY HEART IS ABOUT TO DIE.
I
JESUS'
THE TEAR FROM MY
I LOVE YOU
DAVID
As a Flower
11\18\93
May my life Be as a flower
May i not be blown By the storms of
life
May i not be scorched
by the droughts, But
May the
May i be each morning
new Just
As A flower in Jesus' Care
Behind the
Clouds
Behind the clouds of life, sometime i don't always see
oh lord what you have for me
Behind the clouds of life, i
cant always hear
oh lord what your trying to say to me
Behind the rain of life, i
don't always feel
oh lord what i am getting
but wet
Behind the Clouds
Behind the trouble of life, sometimes i don't always see
oh lord what you have for me
behind the tribulations of life, i
cant always hear
oh lord what your tying to say to me
Behind the pain of life, i
don't always feel
oh lord what i am getting
but hurt
Behind the clouds is one thing I know
that will brighten my day
and bring hope for tomorrow
The Son of God
TODAY I FELT SO, AH WHATS THE WORD
BLAA ?
NOTHING
ZILTCH
I
WASENT SAD
I
WASENT HAPPY
I
WASENT
I
WASENT FRAIDE
BLAA BLAA BLAA
BLAA BLAA BLAA
BLAA BLAA BLAA
BLAA BLAA BLAA
LIKE A BABY SLEEPING, WITH SUCH PEACE
BLAA
MY HEART WAS AT EASE
BLAA
THE
HIS COUGHFING HAD STOPED IT LOOKED LIKE
HE WAS DIEING, CHOKEING TO DEATH
HIS CALLS FOR HELP WERE DROUNDED BY THE
NOISE OF EVERYONE AROUND, YET I HEARD HIM
I KNEW CPR,
THE CHOICE WAS MINE TO HELP OR NOT
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THE
HIS CRYING HAD STOPED IT LOOKED LIKE
HE WAS DIEING, CHOKED BY SIN
HIS CALLS FOR HELP WERE DROUNDED BY THE
NOISE OF EVERYONE AROUND, YET I HEARD HIM
I KNOW JESUS,
THE CHOICE WAS MINE TO TELL OR NOT
''Come out
and socialize with us.''
I for so long wanted to be part of a
"click"
But
never was
I hate being alone, feeling like a shadow
But
it always happens
I fear saying Good-bye, so I don't say anything
But
I know I should try
I hide behind a smile, my hearts cry's I hide
Now
you ask for me to come out and abide
I
say yes, I have so much to say,
but no one seems to
hear
I
long to laugh and have fun again
But no one thinks it's funny
I
dread being Just a shadow, which no one really knows
But I usually am
I
want to come out and socialize.
I
want to be your friend.
I
want to be your friend.
Daddy God
Oh, Daddy God Why Do i
feel so all alone
What makes me so hateful of myself
How come I fear rejection so much
Oh, Daddy God
I need someone to listen
to Just care
Just to stand by and share my cries
Oh, Daddy God
I feel that I cant go on
My life is a mess
I need a Friend
Oh, Daddy God
I need you Love
I want your Love, Daddy God
headache
I forgot what I was going to ask you
my head its pounding
just like my heart
my eyes art blurry
i feel quite dizzy
my stomach is growling
i need to eat
my ears are ringing
i need some sleep
my head seems to be in a vice
i don't need your advice too
my fingers want to finish this poem
i can't think how
my mind is dead
this is what i dreaded
i just want to go to bed
oh yea do you have any aspirin ?
Thanks
gulp, swallow, sleep
.........all better..............................
Jesus stood
across from me
I felt so guilty
I
felt like I let him down
I
felt so far away
I
felt like leaving
but I stayed
Jesus stood across from me
He
didn't say a word
He
wasn't disappointed
He
was so close
He
Gave me the choice to go
Jesus stood across from me
He
didn't have to say a word
His
eyes spoke Love
As
Jesus stayed on a Cross for me
for me ?
and Now
with out many words, Just his blood
I stand across from Jesus
Because
of his forgiving Love
Leaves
Slowly they fall one by one to the earth below
the soft wind blowing each one in the sky
there colors each striking to the eye as the
tree
cries its leaves away they fall all alone
till they reach the ground where they die
then
it's time to rake them up.(what fun)
LET GO OF MY
TOUNGGG
LET GO
LET
GO
LET
GO,SO I CAN SPEAK
LET GO, SO I CAN
SCREAM
LET
GO
LET
GO
LET
GO OF MY TOUUNGGG... OUCH!
LET
GO
LET
GO
LET
GO, IT HURTS SO VERY SO
LET
GO, LET MY TOUNG GO
LET
GOD
WHY
BE
MY TOUNG
Look, Look at
my rist
and you will see
A
scared Memory
Not
too many see
Of
a lonely Hour
When
I didn't want to face another Day
When
I can't even Pray
and no one noticed me
Tears
filled my eyes
As my heart silently cried.
Look, Look beyond
The
walls I've Built
I'm
calling out
Wanting
to be loved
Waiting
to laugh once Again
and have a close Friend
wanting to face another day
waiting for you to see the real me
looking for, someone to Understand
To
just be their, holding my hand
and just be
Jesus
to me
LOST IN THE
CROWD
ONCE AGAIN I STAND, IN THE MIST OF
THEY
THEY
I
AM LOST IN THIS CROWD
LOST
MY HEART POUNDS, WANTING
BUT THEY LEAVE ME STRANDED IN MY OWN LITTLE WORLD
ON AN
BUT NEVER STOP
THEY HAVE LABLED ME AS A MUTE WITH NO WORDS TO
SAY
AS STRANGE
LOST IN THEIR CROWD,
Lost in the crowd
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OUT OF FRUSTRATION
HURTS OF MEMORIES PAST.
MY HEART POUNDED AS I WAITED
FOR A RESPONCSE TO THE
Why am i here?
Why do
I feel so all alone?
Why is
everything such a mess?
Why can
I not see beyond the cloud of cares?
Why do
I even try?
Why can
not I stop crying?
Why do
I feel like dying?
Why?
Why
should of go on living?
Why!
Then a small voice called to me Looking into His
radiance,
I saw tears in His eyes once again I
asked,
Why?
His response so tender and soft answered all my "why's"
I
called you here...
I will
fix your mess...
I will
carry our cares, so you can see...
I do
see you crying...
I know
that feeling, I cried many tears too
I am
your Friend, I know,
I know what's it like to die.
It like to die for you
Just
you and all your why's
I am
Jesus the Way the Truth and the Life...
Puddles
It's
raining out,
And
here at VFCC your bound to find a puddle
Its
raining out and I take a walk,
And I
watch people as they carefully walk around the puddles
It's so
depressing to see puddles that have no one to play with
And I
feel sorry, so I jump and splash and have a blast
Its fun
to play in a puddle or to just stop, walk slowly through it
And I am bound to get wet but that's half the
fun for
Its
only a while that puddles last then there are dried up by the sun
And
until it rains again i need to find some other fun.
Roller Coasters
Sometimes
in life I feel like I am on a roller coaster
I wait
in line
In line
for what
I get
my seat and wait my heart pounds faster and faster
the
cars start to roll
here
I go with another day....beep...beep ...beep cab plunk I shut off my alarm,
stumble
out of bed, now there's no turning back
N
O
W
up
again I just prayed
D
O
W
N
again
I am so afraid,
Up
again, upside down just going all around
for
a second of stillness I feel a swell of illness
I
scream I yell no one can tell though as
I smile
and say hello
the
tides almost over and it
went
so fast wonder what I did today but
sit
and scream and get really sick( maybe tomorrow I will ride the merry go round?
and round and round and
round
ahhhh!
Shadows
Shadows covers the hurt in the heart of pain -- not yet released to Jesus
shadows
covers the tears of past failures which are not yet released to Jesus
Shadows
covers the fears of rejection which are not yet released to Jesus
Shadows covers the healing love that has not yet been received by David...
So close to the threshold
one
day a man come to two doors
He knew
where they both led
one
door was called death
the
other life
he
peeked under the threshold of
deaths
door looking for the missing peace
of
his life even though there was a sign saying
Danger!!
he
still touched the door knob and found his hand stuck
he
was getting closer and closer to opening this forbidden door himself
he was
so close to death so close to perishing as the threshold but
then
from the door of life came a man
not an
ordinary man
but the
He said
gently
I
already died to free you from our sin,
I am
the way, Turn to me
For I
have plans for your life
I am
your missing peace
I live
you
Then I
feel at His feet crying and free
At that
moment I made a decision to choose life
and to
turn away from death and now I have something
to live
for and have a new Life in Jesus
The sun is shining
The
white clouds are rolling
The
brisk breeze is blowing....such a nice day out...I am
typing
this stupid poem
Now
your wasting your time reading it
you
could be outside
what
are you waiting for this poem is
ENDED
Go out
side you silly!
Empty seats,
there
are always an empty seat next to me?
The Bus
to school
The
lunch line
The
roller coaster's
There
is a quiet space right next to my heart?
The
dinner table
The
movies
The altars,
no one willing to stand next to me?
The
times of troubles
The
lonely hours
The
darkness....! Why ...
Why
would I forget Jesus sitting next to me
right
next to me on the lunch line
right
next to me in the roller coaster,
right
next to me space close to my heart.
Speaking
to me at the dinner table
Speaking
to me at the movies ( telling me to go home)
The
altar, speaking to me,
Peace
be still to never leave or forsake me
in the
times of trouble
being a
friend
The
lonely hours
being a
friend just there in the darkness
being a
friend to lead me on why would I forget He is by me?
They Surround me every day,
I pass
them in the hallway,
Even
Say Hi what's up?
yet in
the crowd I do feel,
just
like a shadow, Silent,
the
shadow of the crowd, there
Sometimes
Seen but,
just
the shadow of the crowd,
too
often forgotten and alone,
Just
the shadow in the crowd,
or hear
what's on my mind
the
shadow in the crowd
Just
the shadow of the crowd
The Window
The man
sat gazing out the window
wanting
to be outside but stuck in,
sitting
staring out the window day by day
waiting
for the pebbles
to hit
the window and someone say
"come
out and play"
day by
day the pains of the window
grew
darker and cold as
the man
sat by the window
the
light turned to night
his
eyes raining with tears
his rist with pain
what
would remain
the
window was broken
I fell
by the window dieing
wondering
why you dint just knock on my door
wondering
why the shades are down now
and I
am gone and your are too late...
Mathew
28:19
Unseen feelings
Oh, my
lord you see what's deep down inside of me
Oh,
Lord you hear, my hidden cry
Oh,
Lord you feel the pain I know
Oh,
Lord you know
Oh,
Lord you know the unseen feelings I ask why what's inside,
What
makes me cry?
That
makes me feel that I want to die
Why do
I hide my cries
Why do
I not want to try to be me
Teach
me to not hide my feelings
Oh Lord
but to give them to you, my Love.
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Poems
1996-1997
By
David Thomas Gross
1997
Where do I call home?
Is this my home? Can I call this my home?
Is there supposed to be war, when my heart is at peace?
Is there supposed to be hate when you love me so much Jesus?
Is there supposed to be fighting when I did nothing wrong?
Is there supposed to be worry when I have faith in you?
Is there supposed to be loneliness amidst your own family?
Is there supposed to be walls that feel like a prison?
Is there supposed to be divisions that cut like a knife?
Lord Jesus this is no home it is a house.
I need you to help me to know your will is greater than my families.
You are my peace, you are my hiding place, you are my faith, you are
My home and my source of love. You are my freedom.
Lord I look forward to the day I will be home with you.
Liberty
Go get them out
They are my people and they are in bondage to the devil
Go get them out, wherever your foot treads it is yours,
No door is too big for me to open, No vision too grand,
When I hold your hand,
Can you hear their cries?
Go get them out, meet there needs,
Behold I have sent many angle's before you.
My People are in prisons with no bars,
They have the right to be free,
But have believed the lies of the devil for years,
Go get them out, bring them to church,
You shall bring bus loads of people who,
Shall be saved, healed and delivered,
They shall have freedom,
When you go do not worry about the locks on the doors,
I will open every door, and if they are locked
Seek my face, I will answer anything you ask in my name
Bring hope, bring love bring me."
Jesus
His Voice
It is like rushing water
His voice takes my broken heart
And all the pain, my tears washed away by His voice,
When he says, "I love you"
I say, but God look at what I have done!
He answers," Look to my son, His blood removes all you have done"
I ask why do you love me?
His eyes tell the answer
It's in Him that love exists
The proof of this is in the scars that still remain
Scars from my sin bore on Him
His voice speaks when it is quiet,
His word stands when He has not said a thing,
All we must do is listen to,
His voice
God's voice
Saying Goodbye
Tears fill our eyes
So we can not see
The things God has for you and me
It is the key to keep a dry eye.
Is there a way to ease the pain?
My eye rain tears
Will I ever be able to say hi again?
Or will the fear of saying goodbye,
Keep my eyes dry
And my heart concealed,
My heart that needs to be healed
I hate saying good-byes
Little Piece of Sand
On the beach full of sand, one little pebble
Feels all alone,
Longing for a friend to give a hand
This little piece of sand does not feel very grand
Teardrops fill its hands
This little piece of sand is surrounded by
Many other pieces of sand,
Yet it feels like it is stuck
On an Island all alone,
Longing for a home
Time and time again this little piece of sand
Has been broken to bits
Left silently crying mists all of its friends
Wounded Warrior
Goes here
French Fries
My eyes see French-fries off a yonder
My nose found out from my eyes that
My feet are heading toward those fries
My ears hear my feet moving and ask my mouth
To ask my eyes where are we going?
My eyes see the fries and
My nose knows the aroma
My mouth don't know where we go yet
My fingers can just about feel the salt and potatoes
My French fries and I, we finally meet
My feet are stopped
My eyes hear
My nose sniffs
And finally my mouth eats
French-fries
(only my brain (a small part)
would thing of a poem about French fries)
The Price of following Jesus
The glamour of the ministry quickly fades to tears
in the light of the cost of the ministry.
I have left my family, my friends to follow
All that I am belongs to my Jesus
My will
My life
Many are the days of strife
many are the sleepless nights over lost souls
many a friends have deserted
is there a price to high to pay to follow Jesus?
Is there a place to stay outside His will?
That can equal His perfect will?
Will I not leave all at a moments notice?
Will I not go to the ends of the earth to follow you?
and with His strength give me my very life back.
There is a price to pay and Lord today I commit to die to my
self and to follow you help me Lord to pray the price.
I don't know what do you?
I don't know what this poem is about
I don't know what, do you know what?
I don't know what, this poem could be about
I don't know what, but I will just start and type
I don't know what rhymes with type, and this is no hype
I don't know what
I just don't know what
if I knew what then I would know what this poem is about
I don't know, do you know?
click I do know I just got it I will wait till
tomorrow to right a poem about something else.
so I do know what now?
now do you know what
ok..............................................................
What?
Stinky Shoes
Two pair of shoes,
One belongs to you, one to me
Two pair of shoes,
four feet two are yours, two are mine
Two pair of shoes,
You take off one shoe, I do the same
Two pair of shoes
PU what a stink
Two pair of stinky shoes on the floor,
PU what a stink
Two pair of shoe's and two pair of smelly feet
but with two pair of smelly feet
we can not tell who's is worst
So What?
Rain drops on my head
So what
Puddles beneath my feet
so what
My toes are cold
so what
I splash and splash
and have a blast
so what
so what!
Stain Glass
No one see's in, the stain glass windows
Everything is just the same as it always was
The same pews and the same people in the same seats
and the same stain glass windows
we only see dark figures on the outside,
we do not see the inside, for if we did we would see what the
world see's dark figures in the inside luke warm.
stain glass window, dare not step on anyone's toes
who knows they might go,
stain glass windows
windows without no rain, just stains of the blood of countless
souls who would not come in, stain windows with no brokenness
are the tearless eyes many of the church see through,
its time to break some windows.
No turning left no turning right
His Love compels me on this road that is long and strait
many other roads off me a way out, yet they all lead to deaths deadly grip
I have learned this the hard way,
There is no turning left no turning right,
some day s I have walked and walked followed by death
but trying to keep Jesus in sight.
I will not let fright to cross my path
I will not turn left of turn right
but I vow to keep Jesus in sight.
When the walls fall
Bound in the cold dark lonely prisons surrounded by walls
walls that I built to keep others out,
walls that ruined out to be the same walls that bound me in.
many have tried to break my walls down
but they only broke my heart down,
Then Jesus came in and at every tear I cried part of a wall
was destroyed,
He set me free,
and not I go to see others set free, to see others healed
and daily I die to myself.
and to the precious Holy Spirit I yield.
When the walls fall Jesus makes people free.
Run
Who can run from the living God?
yet he lets his people run and run
and run and run and have there fun
and when they are done they have a choice
a choice to listen to His voice
or to run.
Mercy
Goes
here
Lord Give Me the Words to Say
Lord give me the words to say
when my heart can not find a way
when I do not know what to say
give me the words,
give me the words,
when I can see no way
Lord give me the words to say
for there is no other way
Your Strength
Lord I am so weak
my heart does not know how
to let go
Lord you are my everything
nothing else matters
because I am so weak
You are strong
when i do not know how
to let go
you hold me
when I do not know where
to go
you guide me
You are my strength
you are my Jesus
I Love you
The Mountain
What
a big mountain
So
big you can not see the top
So
wide you can't get around it
And
here I am with this small seed of faith
Some
may say I do not have enough
Some
may say it won't work
But
its not how big the mountain is
It
is how much faith God has given
Some
may try to dig though this mountain
Some
may try to run from this mountain
But
I say in the name of Jesus
Mountain
be removed and cast into the sea
"Now
faith is,
The
substance of things hoped for
The
evidence of things not seen."
Hebrews
11:1 KJV
David
T Gross
The name of Jesus
At
the mention of his name
Demons
bow and fall to the gound
In
utter fear
At
the name of Jesus
Sickness
goes
And
body's made whole
At
the name of Jesus
People
are born again
Into
the kingdom of God
The
Name of Jesus
Is
all one needs
Snow
Snow
is cold
Snow
is white
But
snow is not
Snow
is White
Snow
is wet
And
fun to play in
Lets
make a snow person
Snow
snow snow
Also
a pain
It
is cold
Snow
ments
Snow
balls
Like
my face
Snow
Is
OK
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Look
its snowing out
Empty Eyes
They
say the eyes are the window of the soul
And
as I sat across from him all I could see was emptiness
There
was no sparkle of life, only emptyness of being lost
Tear
stained eyes, with a permant strain from the bottle
What
could change his eyes I wondered,
Then
I remembered a time when I could not see
A
time when that was me,
And
I received my sight by Jesus
I
was blind and empty
Just
like my father
And
asked His son to take my life
And
Holy Spirit to take my will.
And
my eyes, He did fill.
Only you Lord
I
will only rely on you Lord Jesus
All
the others I have put my trust in have gone
Never
again will that happen
Lord
I want you to be my best friend
Only
you have what I need
Lord
help me to know you
And
the power of the cross
Help
me to get really close to you
Lord
relight the fire onece agaain
The
fire when I first met you
Lord
hel me to be an example to others
Of
how close one can get with you
Lord
meake me like you
Use
me as a vessle not gold or silver
But
a broken one
Smash
my will with yours
Help
me lord I need you daily
May
this year be the great test ever.
I
love you
Waiting for the rain
Lord
in your presence we wait
Lord
we pray send your rain
Then
we wait
And
wait
And
wait
And
wait
Years
later we say
Lord
even though we waited for so long
We
will not forget your promise to us of rain
Then
the ski's break
As
we break our will to let His will be done
He
Says to me
"its
only seconds till my answer is sent
your
prayers are already known however
waiting
is a skill many need to learn
oh
if you would only wait,
I
hear your prayers and long to answer them quickly
Do
not despise waiting for if you see you shall find
Just
wait on me".
Where is everyone?
Once
again I am left alone
I
still wonder how I can feel like this
So
many people around me
And
yet I feel so all alone
But
its when all have gone
That
I se I need you
Lord
if this is part of
the price for the anointing
I
will pay it with your help.
Lord
I cry out to you
I
trust you and your promises to me
That
you will never leave me
So
to you and you alone I cleave
You
are all I got
You
are my life and my best friend
I
love you Jesus
Thanks
for listening to me again.
How can words explain this feeling?
I
am at the end of my rope
And
I have just let go
And
now i am in desperate need of you Jesus
I
see my weakness and I cry out to you
Jesus
be my source of everything
Lord
be my love
Lord
be my best friend
Lord
I place you first
Above
"ministry"
Above
all the stuff I do
Above
my feelings
Above
my desires
Above
my life
Jesus
touch my heart now
Dig
up the places I never let you go to
Here
am I, have your way in me
Bring
release to me
I
love you Jesus
Then
the word came in a still small voice
I
Love you
I
am with you, and long to heal you
You
are my child,
There
are places in your life I want to work on
I
am the God that heals
I
want to be your best friend
I
will never leave you or forsake you
For
I see you in a way you have yet to see
And
soon you will see too if you let me show you
When
you are the weakest I am your strength
When
you feel all alone I am with you
When
you hurt I am ready to pour in the healing waters
When
you are happy in me,
You
gain strength,
When
you are constantly around people
You
miss the intimate time we could have
Get
to know me and I will be all to you.
I
will show you true love that can not be explained by words
But
by me
I
love you too
Does anyone care?
I
sit here alone in my room
And
where once my best friend sat
I
stare
And
wonder does anyone care? How I feel
I
know all they stuff people say
To
try to comfort me
Yet
all I want is someone to listen
I
don't want preachy answers
Stuff
like "it will be ok"
"you
will make other friends"
"Life
goes on deal with it"
I
can not, I never could figure this all out
Why
when someone leaves I feel so alone
Just
like when my dad left
I
don't have words to explain
I
know Jesus is here with me
But
sometimes it is good to have
Someone
with flesh
Who
can give a hug
Is
this selfish mabe?
I
don't care
All
I feel is pain
I
am hurting and just want someone to care
Some say I am too weak
And
I am, they are right
Because
I have learned
That
when I am weak
You
are strong in me Lord
Like
a sheep you lead me
And
Like a lion I long to destroy that devils work
And
people are a lion yet they destroy everything but the devils work,
Because
they have no gentleness in them
Some
people are just lost sheep
Who
left the fold and will not be bold
Lord
make me gentle as a sheep
But
as bold in you as a lion
And
Like I lion I will sneak behind enemy's lines
And
wait for the time you tell me to leap
Like
a lamb, lead me till I die
And
wipe the tears from my eye
Help
me not to see me as others see me but as you do
My
time with Jesus
Does
Love die?
My
Little shell
So
you want to buy my chevy
Go
tell them the good news
Rain
drops falling on my head
Poems 2001
My Poems 2001
By David T Gross
Drunk
as a skunk,
I sink and stink,
It looks so
sweet,
But bites like a snake,
Who has control,
Is the rope that long,
Should I try to find a
Road that I know the end to.
Should I walk a path,
I told others not to walk.
Now that I have,
Can I go home please?
Never let me cut the rope,
God help me, I need you.
Yet I keep on running from You.
They let my go, they let me run.
Now its
Drunk as a skunk,
Razzmatazz
Looking for
something ,someone I already had and lost
Lost love, Susan
my first love,
When will I feel
again, when will I be again.
In love like I
was, till I died.
Who lied? Was it
I ?
Razzmatazz
I waited, alone
with the smell of you
Letting me sleep
at night
Thinking what
little time we had, every word we said,
Every step we
took
Every look we
knew.
Razzmatazz
Was it puppy
love, was it lust
Was it at all
what we said.
Razzmatazz
A poem that never ends
My life is like a poem that never ends,
It goes on and on like a bunny in a funny
Commercial,
what will be the end,
Two paths walked only one holds the truth.
Its so much easier to go down hill that to face
The mountain of pain, which I know I must face.
The mountain I try to climb under will crush me.
Work, sleep, party
God, peace, quiet
I shut down to calm the pain of Gods hand trying to
heal
Trying to give life, because I wanted to see it, in
just one person.
Not in just word, but in deed.
Dizzy, dizzy, spin around and around,
And around, dizzy, dizzy, broke and alone,
Been so hurt its hard to love, been so crushed its
hard to
Live. But I
do. Just to be,
I wonder, where, what, how to be real.
Dizzy, dizzy, buzzed, confused, alone.
Where are all those friends who said they would
stick like glue.
Why is there more fellowship in a bar then in a
church.
This should not be.
Where are those walking the streets, calling the
lost sheep home?
Jesus is calling to go Find the lost sheep and get
them before its too late.
They are lost confused, dizzy with the things of
this life,
Wanting to come home, but just not knowing the way.
"I kicked
that map in the river" it was my life
It's easy to get
lost in the world, and even harder to get out the world.
We have enough
power to win the world. We just don't
bring it with us.
I didn't even see
this stuff It's like all around us.
Lost sheep tell
Me where you are, where are you?
Its easier to live, a life, then it is to fight the fight
But in the end, its better to fight. Then live in
fright.
Of Gods might.
A poem
Clggerets suck big time so do i.
Where is God
in my life, where have i run to. oh how far is it to get home.
--
My friends having left me, alone, cold, my heartbeat
fading like the sunset, the pain dulled by hardness of my imbiougousness.
--
Oh what
fun, bored hopeless time,
Will i ever be done with
school, why so hard to get a little peice of paper,
when i know i am done!
--
government of myself having nonetheless gone out of
business willing to settle with God cause i cannot do
this no more.
--
government of Myself having nonetheless
gone out of
business.
willing to settle with God,
cause one can
not reach deep enough in,
broken, broke, hurt,
my hardened
heart, hurts, each beat.
government of myself being overturned
mind, spirit,
body
I can not carry no more, get along!
gone out of business is not an option.
mind- settle
down, be still, be whole.
spirit- trust
God, overcome.
body- be strong,lovable.
goverment of my self having none the less
settled with God,is now
nonetheless happy.
none of me.
--
where can i go, where can i believe what i knew,
Live the faith so deeply hidden in my wounded soul?
Fight the fight i lost,
run the race i fell on, get up and live so i don't die.
--
Death
surrounds me, meaningless is society that has no God,what
is the point to live if your dead allready?
--
Waisted time, waisted life, hope
fades like a flame without wood, airless existence, devouring dreams, hope,
none, everything, nothing .
--
Was a homeless person, once without a home, a hope, food, stuff, friends. The latter being better.
--
To expire my existence seemes
good to me, thinking itself i run a race i lost allready, nothing seemes to get better, myself and my thomas
heart, wants to quit but itself keeps going. To my admazement!
--
lost anyone there, anyone thinking of me, God must
do nothing until i do something, anything.
--
cold, feelinless ,tired of everything, life.
Eat sometimes, hungry all the time,
Fat ugly me, so i see,
nothing left of me.
--
Ring ring, ringing, picked
up the phone,
There went the tone, of the ringing phone,
Next time don't pick up the phone.
--
Dissy wissy, whatever goes up
goes down.
--
Death so close, not to far. Nothing left to hang on
to, time will soon end, for then i will go,
Hope sinking like rainfall on the desolite desert,
My heartbeat like a bell tower will ring no more.
--
Nothing left, The one who loved me, God ?
Where is this love, his people are missing.
One last, chance, i cry out
to Him. God?
--
Hurting heart, stop your beating, only pain.
At las i
say i want to die!
--
No one's home, i want to
run just to away.
--
No food, hunger fills my fat belly.
Who dares to care, nothing there.
Running away, you can not see, where you ought to
be, or who you ought to be
Dam tooth, holes need fillingsl
Hair cut,braintree
,chopped it off
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Dreamed of daddy
What it could be was
only a dream
Daddy and momy
God
Freedom of life,unburdoned
By fright
Dreamed of daddy
Then arose to the reality
Daddy is not here
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Flee, die,
Fly,bye,
Cri,sigh